Confused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Again after a long time thought to write a blog, but the question remains, what to write about?

Lots of things happened since last blog, shall I put all those together?

Who will have interest to read it? What the heck!! Do I write for others to read, or just I want to share?

Shall I write about my offshore experience?? Or shall I write about my experience of working on site?

If I decide to write about that, then shall I write about the giant structures which are supposed to be engineering achievements in my work field or shall I just write about the fun I had during those site days?

What’s point in making fun of me just for others to read? Or do I really think the way of making fun of myself?

Bla bla bla……….

Lots of questions but no answer! Now you know why it takes me so long to write each blog. It’s just bloody too many questions I have to answer me before writing anything.

Is it necessary always to think so much before doing anything? Oh, another question!!!!

Basic problem with me is just, one sentence, “too much thinking, and no action!!”

Or am I too lazy to do anything??? Finding excuses for not doing something! Are these all questions are just excuses I try to find out for justifying my not doing something?

This is not only related to blog, but in many other things. Like, for example Studies.

I am thinking to going for CAT this year again. I had given it last year too, but being too lazy to study, I convinced myself, “this is just a try I am giving this year, I will actually go full heartedly for CAT next year”. It was just an excuse for not studying.

Ok. What about this year??

It’s July ending already, and I still have not started anything, in-spite of having all the material to study and all the time in the world to do it. But I prefer freaking around on the internet just going nothing, convincing myself, “I get too bored passing time at office, that leaves me tired and not able to do anything at home”.

Do I have excuse this time?? I don’t think so and bloody hell, I even know that very clearly, but still not at all feeling like studying!

Ok, leave studies, as studies were meant to be boring. What about other things?

I hate to get out once I reach home after office.

Don’t think that I must be reaching late at home after hectic work hours or something. My office schedule is pretty much fun, with no work to do these days, all the time just games and time pass. And I leave office sharp at 5:10 pm, not even a single second more and reach home by 6.15 pm at the most, with my bus dropping me very near to home.

So even if it takes 1 hour to get fresh, I still have time 7.15 pm to 12.00 pm in my hand to do something useful.

What do I do during this time, I keep on surfing net, orkutting, chatting, face book, even if I get bored, but I still don’t log off and do anything else.

Ok. What do I do on internet? What I should be doing is, read about investments I need to do, read about market, read news, which would eventually help me. What I do all the time? Orkut, Face book, Gmail, Yahoo mail, Rediffbol, G-talk, Yahoo messenger, that’s all.

Am I just too confused in life about what to do?? Or I just love criticizing myself?

Will it ever change? Or I should say, will I ever think of changing all this?

OMG!! Too many questions again, with no answer to anyone of those?

Dasaryachya shubh muhurtawar aaj me punha lihayala basalo, manat kahi wichar hote te tumchya sobat share karawese waatle,

 

Ha post me marathi madhye lihit aahe, karan mala waatata ki me marathi madhye majhe wichar jasta spashta pane maandu shakto, ekda karun tari pahawa.

 

So all non-Marathi readers please excuse me! If this goes good, I will translate this as it is in English, but later.    So here I go…………..

 

Sahajach eka mulishi boltana chitrakalebaddal wishay nighala. Mala tasa chitra kaadhne khup aawadayache, almost 10^th paryant chitrakala was my best way to pass the time. Pan nantar abhyas aani career madhye evdha guntalo ki chitra wagaire kadhayala wel nasayacha.

 

Tya muline wicharle,”Tu chitra kaadhtos ka?”

Me, ”Actually, aadhi kadhayacho, aata nahi.”

Ti, ”achha, tar mag imagine tar karshil, ki jar aata chitra kaadhla tar kasa kaadhnaar te?”

Me ,”Ho te nakkich karu shakto!”

Ti, “achha, tar mag, imagine a boy and girl in your picture, in some function/ceremony whatever, and describe me what is picture like?”

 

Mala thoda wichitra waatla aadhi, mhanje imagine karna thik aahe, but explain kasa karayacha. Pan, me jeva explanation suru kela, teva jaanawala ki kharach, te chitra kiti sundar hota te.

 

Picture was something like this.

 

College aahe, majhya college saarkha, aaj baaju la khup mula muli aahet, DJ  romantic songs play karat aahe (arthatach he aiku nahi yenar karan he phakta chitra aahe, video nahi), kahi couples dance karat aahet, sagla kahi Quad (“Place exactly in the middle of the college buildings, left open for any functions, special occasions, etc). madhye chalala aahe

 

Sagle mula muli rangabirangi dress madhye aahe, specially Red color madhye, karan function aahe “Rose Day” cha. Kahi mula, rose gheun mulinkade jaat aahe, tyana rose offer karayala, kahi mulini already rose accept kele aahet, aani mula barobar hasat bolat aahet. Ha sagla phakta background aahe, actually he sagli background black and white mahdye aahe, mhanje chitra aankhin chhan disel.

 

Aata, ek mulga, ekdum baarik nahi, but medium built asnaara, loose red T-shirt madhye, loose blue jeans madhye. Hairs Jasta mothe nahi, thode wikhurlele, thodese neet arrange kelele, descent disatil evdhech, height sadharan , around 5 ft 8”, sport shoes, dark blue and white in color, hatat silver color watch, fair complexion, etc

            Tyachya hatamadhye kahitari aahe, je to konapaasun tari lapawato aahe. Thodasa nervous expression aahe chehryawar,

 

Tya mulachya samor, ek sundar mulgi ubhi aahe.

 

Mulgi is around 5ft 4” height, khup jasta fair complexion, salwaar kameez madhye, white colored, tyachyawar Red color cha nakshikaam kela aahe, kes dark black, thode lamb, eka clip ne baandhlele, thoda oval shaped chehra, sharp eyes thode light colored, chhotasa naak, round lips, red color chi odhni, aani skin tight salwaar ti suddha red color madhyech.

 

Ti mulakadech baghte aahe, but tyachya chehryakade nahi tyachya haata kade. Mulachya haatamadhye Red rose aahe, tyala to tya mulila dyayacha aahe, but to nervous aahe, ki kasa deu, to tya mulikade dole war karun direct baghu pan shakat nahi aahe itka nervous aahe.

 

Aani ti mulgi waat baghtey, tya mulachi, tyacha Rose asalela haat kadhi war yenaar, aani to tila kadhi propose karnaar yachi, as if ti khup diwasapaasun ya momentchi waat baghte aahe.

 

That’s it, majhya manat ajunahi he chitra ekdum clear aahe, pan kalala nahi ki yacha artha kay. Mhanun me tila wicharla ki picture tar me describe kela, pan yachya artha kay?

 

Ti, “Are wedya tula ajun kalala nahi, tya picture madhla mulga is you, that is how you want to be, aani ti mulgi is your dreamgirl, your soul mate, this is how you want your life partner to be, aani tu jo color saglyat jasta use kela picture madhye, is your favourite color, je explanation background cha dila, that explains your nature, this was one of the games, which helps us to understand ourselves better.”

 

Aani tyanantar, me te chitra kadhi wisarnaar navto, wisaruch shakat nahi.

 

Tya chitra madhla mulga tar me aahe. But ti mulgi kuthe aahe? Ti mala kadhi bhetel?

Bhetlo tari asa kshan kadhi yeyil, jasa me ya chitramadhye describe kela aahe????

ka kadhi tya chitramadhye lapawalela rose me kadhi tila deil??

Anek prashna aahet, aani me tya prashnanchi uttare shodhat aahe!

tumhi suddha try karun paha, khup chhan waatel !!!!!!!!

LOVE??????????????

Guys, this is not written by me, but it s one of the nice mails i recieved recently, i thought to share it with all,

Someone has tried to explain love in his words, and done it beautifully!! It touched my heart, hope will touch yours too!

Have a read once.................

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THIS IS DEDICATED TO THOSE WHO HAVE NOT FALLEN IN LOVE, WHO HAVE ALREADY FALL N ALSO TO THOSE WHO HAVE BROKE UP...............! 

I'M STILL WAITING FOR SOMEONE................! SOMEONE  SPECIAL IN MY LIFE  " EVER N FOREVER "   

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In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let them go....

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? When we die?

This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

There are things that we never want to let go off, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world.

It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.

A great LOVE? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. 

Remember" LOVE is like a bird , set it free to fly in the open sky , If it's Your's ,Than it will come back to you , doesn't matter where u r , how rich or poor u r , & if it  doesn’t come's to U , than no need to cry for that, just think that your bird has forgotten  his way back to You" 

Remember "you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it".

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made. Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you
hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever...

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available.

It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone. 

Remember" U hurt a true heart in Love as many times u want  , it wont stop Loving U , But if U cheat a true heart wont hurt or hate u but it wont dare to Love U again " 

"Love is for  Life , Life is not for Love, 
 Love may fail in Life , Life should never fail in Love, 
 So don’t spoil Life in Love , but don’t forget Love in Life.............." 

Finally  "LOVE  is  not  the  heart of  life , It is Just  a part  of  Life". 

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TEMPLE..............

Like every Saturday evening, I had gone temple today. It’s not like I am strong believer of god or anything, I believe god, I do pray, but not that often.

 

Temple is really amazing place, place where there is something in environment bringing Purity, may be because of all the devotees coming there. However tired you are, how ever tensed you are, you will feel relaxed there. Just go and sit there for about five minutes or ten minutes. You will feel relieved of all the worries.

 

Just have look on the people there, some old group discussing their lives, some young couple discussing their futures, some children playing stupid but cute games, few students praying god so that they can do better in exams, some students even study there. Atmosphere is so positive there.

 

This is true about all the temples, not only where I am mentioning. Some times I think from where does this sudden change in environment comes from, why this atmosphere in temple is so calm and peaceful?

 

May be that’s what it is meant for!!

 

Or may be that is what God means, PEACE and CALM.!!

"ME" post

Hi all.

Finally, I have all set my mind to write 4^th post. After a long break!!

What really made me write post today???

Ahh, there is something you know, someone stranger scrapped me on orkut (coincidently his and mine surname are same), saying that ‘he read my post, and they are nice.’ (huh really????? I don’t think so.)

Till this time I used to think (which should actually be true), that anyone reading my posts is like wasting his time. As I never went out of ‘me’ while writing too. Subjects I chose are also more concentrated on me only. I consider this as my personal diary, which I don’t want to keep personal.

Probably the reason can be (I hate to accept this, but fact is fact guys) I am too much self centered, thinking about me all the time, just cant express myself in person, hence I am expressing myself here, where I don’t know who will read it (why anyone would read it), but it gives mental satisfaction to me, that, yes, I have shared my thought with others.

For those, who read my posts, and give positive comments, thank you very much friends, you are encouraging me to write more. And I promise you one day I will write a post without mention of ‘me’ in that. So that you won’t feel your time wasted in reading crap written by some ‘me’ centered guy.

Friends, I am self centered in thoughts only, otherwise in actions, my friends say I am the one of best friends they have, ( at least I should praise me in something yaar, I cant be critical on myself that long). I do care for friends, but I am my best friend, that’s why I care for me most.

I will stop writing here, as I can go on writing about me for hours and hours. Don’t want to take precious moments of anyone’s life wasting in reading long post. Again, one more ‘me’ centered post, I am ending here.

Bye……………. Have a nice time!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FEEling LAzyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Hi all.

It took me really long time to write third blog now. See this happens when you start something with good josh, and after sometime it when that josh ends na, everything goes in past which you try to avoid, may be not avoid, but you start feeling bored to do that.

Sometimes I feel, what made me so lazy. And immediately next question comes, is that engineering? What I did in engineering, if I had a closer look, “traveled daily from Thane to Andheri”, (Ohh, I still wonder how did I manage to do that, now a days, I find it impossible to travel by train from Thane to Mulund also). The time in the train was so unproductive. Rather I never tried to do something productive during that time. But let me say something here, u cant think of doing anything during that time. Imagine your condition when you are almost sandwiched between the passengers in the train, no place to put your foot, if you raise your leg up by even a inch, I bet you will have to go standing on one leg only.

So, in a nutshell, I didn’t do anything during that time, except wondering in my imaginations, my dreams, mostly of getting job, getting girlfriend, (probably that’s what always goes in mind of budding engineers—Naukari & Chhokari, there are few exceptions, but they are very few) mostly sleeping. Same activity for 4 hours a day ( 2hr for going to college and 2 hrs for coming back), five days a week, minimum (extra hours during festivals, and during classes). It made me so used to it that even now a days while sitting in office, I can’t avoid myself from getting lost in dreams, and thoughts, this is very true.

Ok, enough blame on traveling, now what next in blame line: Lectures? Probably yes! Or again my reluctance to listen in lecture? After traveling for two hours in tight rush, first 2 lectures are bound to be ignored, of course being a human, we require time to recover!, after those 2 lectures, sitting on same place again for more 2 lectures, and those two also before lunch, how can one concentrate yaar, its tough ask. And after all these, lecturer comes into picture, lecturer has to be extra ordinary in his job for making us listen to him, after all this, if he fails, we fail.

So again to cut whole story short, in four years of engineering, I did nothing, except coping assignments, studying at last minute during PL and somehow managing to pass to next semester. That habit of doing nothing is still not gone.

To add to this habit, again our jobs played great role, one month orientation program after joining company gave us training to sit at one place for continuous eight hours and doing nothing, the intentions behind it were good, to make us used to such situations.

So now, you know where this all laziness came from.

I can’t give any more excuses, as there is limit to everything yaar.

I won’t say sorry to people who read this crap, and felt wasted their time, as they are responsible for it.

Puraani jeans………..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi all.

Today accidentally I was listening this song, “purani jeans”, this song is about old college days. While listening it, no surprise, took me back to my college days. Suddenly all four years became fresh in my mind.

I still remember my first day in college when after searching my college address for about an hour I reached my classroom, only to come across a senior, and situation was perfect to get ragged. Some how I managed to come out from there. First year was so gone fast like anything. I got late admission in college, in 4th round of admission. So I had to cope up for the lost time and studies. Assignments were out in no time. And semester exam was within 2 months. I managed to get first class somehow. In engineering we have to maintain first class in all semesters, so as to get descent placement. So, I somehow managed to do that.

Second semester also went without notice. It was first time I was coming to know, what is college festivals, college days and all. It was so fascinating for me. Entire semester I was busy in that only, but as a participant only. Major amount of time was being spent in classes and assignments. And above that, I was traveling from Thane to Andheri daily by local train, which was taking around 4 hrs everyday. So no time to get bored. Soon, that semester was also a past. But during that I managed to get some good friends also.

2nd and 3rd year was nothing new. Same story. I was still in 60s, rather I should say, I some how maintained 60 in each semester. At start of third year, I was on first outing with my friends. Me, arshat, chetan and umesh, we had small 2 days picnic to “Ganpatipule”, for me the purest place on earth. Two days with friends, away from family and college was great experience. Only after 4th semester I got introduced to viva thing. And I tell you it was amazing experience; you can never make out whether your viva was good or bad. After 5th semester I was introduced to term “Paper presentation”. For a shy guy like me, it was huge challenge to stand in front of crowd and deliver a presentation, but I did well, I don’t know how, but did well is what matters.

Taking this confidence, I took participation in “Paper presentation” competition in festivals in next semester. This was my first extra curricular activity in entire academic life. And I did it for the only purpose of my resume; I really had nothing to write on my resume. And thanks to my friend “Deepak Patil (aka Dinku)”, it was his professional approach towards competition, and our hard work, which lead us to win consolation prize in competition. My confidence was at par now, I was took part in all games after that, in every festival, and to my surprise I did well in everything.

This was 6th semester, the semester in which our class had first picnic, actually it was planned to be industrial visit, but turned out picnic. I was into entirely different world that time, this was different from school picnics, it was picnic of college students. I enjoyed it a lot. Now, as 6th semester was passing, our placements were coming nearer. This was the time when I had to do my best, for which I worked hard 3 years, traveled 4 hrs every day to college, leaving College nearer to my home, and chose this college. Placements were to begin soon, after 6th semester exam.

It was altogether different atmosphere in class, everybody collecting information about different companies, and was busy in deciding about which company to get in. I was not really thinking in that direction, I was like; I will get in the first company whichever will take me, let it be software or core, it didn’t matter for me. And I had prepared myself for sitting for all companies, and according to my calculations, I was to get placement after 2-3 months the placement starts. But time had something different for me in store.

Placements began. First company was “Bajaj”, offering a good package. Everybody including me was excited. But as per my expectations, I didn’t clear aptitude itself. First chance was gone, but I didn’t feel bad, as I was prepared for that. Next was “Larson and Tubro Ltd.”, much hyped company in all four years. Especially for mechanical engineers, getting into this company was like dream. I was eligible to sit for the aptitude, so sat for that. To my surprise, I cleared aptitude, and it made me even more surprised when I heard, I was selected by the company. It was so quick; placement for me was over within two companies. I was so happy and my family was even happier, as they finally saw their son getting a job. Days were not going to be same after this, and certainly they weren’t.

Now, this last year was going to be special. I was already placed, so was looking for other things, like fun and masti. I never noticed, how 3 years went, and I forgot to get real taste of what is college life. I had bunch of good friends by now, with whom I used to hang out, and having fun. Many students were preparing for CAT, GRE in this semester, but I chose to do nothing, I wanted to live this last year of college to the fullest, I and did the same. I was not that serious about studies, and even more ignorant about submissions. My mind was like, stopped working.

Towards end of the semester, I met two girls, our juniors. Ya, its first time in my post there is mention of girls. But in no time, these First year girls were quite good friends.

The 7th semester ended with a lot ease. Then it was last semester of college, the most fresh in my mind, most memorable one. The semester started with me entering the 9 to 10 lecture at exactly 9.55. It was awesome feeling. And on very first day bunking remaining lectures and going for a movie, and then Juhu beach. This was indication of how this semester was going to be. And after that it became like routine, bunking lectures, wondering around, hanging out in canteen, we all friends including those FE girls.

It was in this semester I was out for a picnic with class again, this time a big one, to “Rajasthan”, for about a week. & days of non stop fun, away from college, and home, days were great and nights were extra great. “Ultimate fun”, only these two words can explain those days. We were completely out of studies this semester. After picnic, it was time for farewells, yes, we had two farewells. One from entire college and one from our “Mechanical Department”, both were great, and touchy. As it was hard to believe that four years were over, and as my friend arshat says, we were “Almost Engineers”….

I still remember that last day after exam, when we were doing bye to every one, but his time, we were not sure when we will be meeting next, but end was there………………